All I can do now is to wait for a biopsy result to come out. Fingers crossed.
As in my previous post, I have finished diagnostic mammography. I felt stronger when a friend decided to come along and hang around at a waiting room with me. Oh, it was such a needed distraction! A radiologist could not confirm it from the mammography images. mmm. I was scheduled for a needle biopsy for another day, a bummer.
A couple of days later, my husband came along for the needle biopsy. Oh, I did not like that. I remembered doing it back in 2014, at the initial diagnostic. Each step was very hard to take then, it reminded me the same dark cold room, a warm blanket, and noise from a machine for the biopsy. I even know that they would put a small metal clip for a mark in my breast. This was my 3rd time. At least, I know all of what I expect. I am glad my husband came with me, more for my mental support.
Now I am waiting for the biopsy result. This will surely confirm what the lump is. I will write the result, but with my own timing, I cannot know how I will feel. Please be patient with me. I will update it. Please cross your fingers for me!
Update on my new lump of Fall 2019. The picture is my way back from work today, and I found a beautiful silver lining on the cloud.
Breast surgeon’s office called me as it promised, the result was inconclusive. My doctor would like to have more information. I am scheduled to do diagnostic mammography soon.
Among many messages, a survivor friend told me her story. It is very similar to mine and her lump was fat necrosis! It was nice to know that I was not alone in this situation. Thank you for sharing it with me, it means a lot to me. (I hope this blog works a similar way to someone one day.)
At this point, it is actually better to be tested thoroughly. It was not all clear, but I take it as a good thing to do. Thank you for all the messages, sending me positive vibes and prayers.
It is any survivor’s nightmare to find a new lump from a previously treated area, and it appeared on mine last Wednesday, August 28, 2019. My heart jumped and I stopped breathing. No, this cannot be real. Unfortunately, only my son was available as his school had not started yet and he was the only one I could talk to confirm it. I hesitated at first… But I needed someone to tell me if there was something. He said there was something. I called my doctor’s office to get the first available appointment: in 10 days.
Check this out! For cancer patients, this TED Talk has great contents! The three things Dr. Olivia Remes says help coping anxiety, I found help cancer patients who face a great deal of anxiety. (Photo during my cancer treatments) (日本語は後に）Three things are:
To feel that you have the control of your life
Find Purpose, feeling that you can contribute to someone
Coming Soon! It is good to know that there are many cancer survivors out there! (日本語は英語の後に）
Recently, I joined a cancer survivorship book project that Marquina Iliev-Piselli has been working on. She had been collecting 40 women’s cancer survivorship stories, and (guess what!?) my story made it to the very last addition to the stories.
I am on the face of the SHARE ovarian and breast cancer support group’s brochure for Winter (January – April program). I did not know how much it helped me to be able to talk to people who had been through breast cancer before me. I hope you will find a comfortable group to talk to. It is such a big relief to know that when I say a couple of words, there are people say “I know what you mean. YES, I have been there.”